I love free things.
free wine tastings,
buy one get one free,
Where does this madness end?!
There is a line because nothing is truly free. Today’s guilt complex comes to you courtesy of “free”.
There are things that I want, that I need, that I’m driven to have that are far from free. I can take myself out of the “lack’ mindset, but when push comes to shove there are days when there is only just enough money left over to pay bills.
Not so recently I lost about 15 lbs. and I have yet to by one pair of pants that don’t scoot off of my caboose because something else always seems to come up, but seriously did I really need that latte – that $6 or $7 could have gone towards that.
There are programs and classes I would LOVE to enroll in – I love spending money when it comes to investing in myself and experiences. Oh, and other people, I love no-reason gifts! Instead I bought, gasp, McDonald’s or rented movies, or bought yet another book to add to my Unread Stack yet will add little to no value to my growth as a person or intellectual.
Here lies the guilt complex; there are people that I look up to, and I will make mention of them a bit later, that offer mindblowing services, products, coaching that I would adore having, but I’ve immersed myself in free content and feel a tinge of guilt because:
- I should be investing in myself.
- They work damn hard on everything they provide, even that “free” content.
- Buying just one product or service – well it’s almost like I’m buying them a well-deserved organic soy latte. Sip on that.
No dramatics, I’m just calling myself out because I found myself saying “I wish I could…” instead of finding a way to just do. Perhaps I’m not ready for it if I haven’t created the resources to get it. In my humble opinion, sounds like an excuse.
Without further ado, these are people that have rocked me on a profound level and I have all of the love and respect for them in ‘ze world!
and there have been so many others that have impacted my life, but the major pushes forward, the primo changes for the better began here. These were my catalysts and I am forever grateful.