Walking into 2016 Empty, New Years, Transformation - Photo Courtesy of Mariona Campany via Unsplash

New Year Part Deux: I’m Walking in Empty

And now one about walking into 2016.

I’m walking in empty. There are no resolutions to be found here. Sure there are things that I would like to see come to pass, but it has nothing to do with that half-hearted and short-lived annual goal planning.

I’m not short on faith. Or love. Or light.

But I do plan on walking into this year empty.
I’m walking in empty of my attachments to that certain outcome.
I’m walking in empty of complacency.
Empty of heart aching. Empty of the weight of the past year.
Empty of half-hearted yeses and settling. Empty of give-a-damns about societal norms.
Empty of the will to chase.
And just plain ol’ empty of the flotsam jetsam from the trials of living.

No reason to hold on.

I’m emptying all of that out to make space.
Instead of holding on to my way, I’m making space for divine miracles.
Instead of complacency, I’m making space for full presence and passion.
Instead of heart ache, I’m making space for compliment.
Instead of the weight of the past year, I’m making space for the many, many, many blessings to come… forever.
Instead of settling, I’m making space for all of the spine-tingling, lusty, awe-inspiring HELL YESES.
Instead of wasting my fucks on societal norms, I’m making space for, well… me.
Instead of chasing, I’m making space for receiving.
And instead of detritus, I’m making space what I treasure most – those I love.

My walking into 2016 empty is intentional and joyous.

I’m empty because I’m burnt out on conventional knowledge being my means to an end.
I’m empty because my way should be in alignment with divine way.
I’m empty because all of that crap that I couldn’t throw away and all of the stories I cleaved to took up the space in my heart and head and life that magic should have held.

I have this kind of feeling that the last two years have been setting us all up for something pure magic in the near future.

Walk into 2016 empty with me! Tell, me what are you leaving behind and what are you making space for?

Love Always,


Let Me Tell You 7 Reasons Why #YouJustCan

Seems like lately I’ve had nothing to say. Rather, I’ve had nothing to say that’s useful in any way other than to join up in the solidarity of an anxious victim mentality that I’ve never supported living in. I’ll admit, there are times it’s nice to gripe and receive some validation that I/you/we aren’t alone in our neuroses, but do we really need one more ranting, raving, whining, self-indulgent diatribe? Probably not.

Truth is that I’ve been letting life whirl right past me. Anxiety makes a terrible home. I needed to meditate, pray, hike, dance, scream, SOMETHING, but I was stuck. That feeling of trying to moving forward through a thick, sludgy swamp just became so exhausting that I didn’t want to fight it anymore. And so listless, I remained. To say that there was no discernible inspiration to glean around me would be a lie – my eyes were closed. Going through the motions.

It’s not secret that I’ve dealt with depression most of my life, but anxiety is a relatively new to me (I had a very blessed childhood). Depression I can work through, but an anxiety that I feel that I can’t surmount on my own works steadily to freeze me in my tracks. The mantras I’ve etched into my mind come out effortlessly, but never ease the bite of worry – and dammit, the stuff worry is made of gets next to nothing done. “Go with the flow. Pray and throw some work into it. Everything will be okay.”

Worry is useless and exhausting. Period.


Judging from the #ijustcant posts, I’m not the only one that stalls out from time to time so let me tell you why you just can:

1. You are made of the same stuff as all great people, all great things, natural wonders, visionaries. Everything is made up of energy, and for the less-woowoo everything is made up of atoms and molecules (check out particle theory!). It’s physics, we are literally made up of the same stuff.

2. Everything, and I do mean everything, that you have been through up until now has made you who you are today and who you are is perfection in every moment. Period. Seriously, you are where you need to be and who you need to be in every single moment. Your heaviest burdens have been your biggest blessings – I shit you not.

3. When your heart gets broken over a botched dream, a less than ideal romance, or something as simple an insult or backhanded compliment that struck too close to home – you have the choice to break open. Breaking open leaves room for all the good stuff to come in.

4. To build on breaking open, shutting down will just turn you into a 2 year old Big Mac. You may not rot, but you’ll harden and stay stuck as you are right now. The way I see it, if you’re in the mindset of stagnation then it definitely isn’t the mode you want to be stuck in forever. Not making a choice is a choice unto itself.

5. You have to. You weren’t created to hold onto pain, to thrive in a house built on fear, anxiety, or depression. You were created to rise and fight. You were created to move forward and align your will with the highest good. Whomever, whatever you believe in put you here in the perfect place and time and you WILL overcome.

6. Living your life like any shred of goodness or decency found in humanity is a surprise becomes poisonous all too quickly. Distrust may feel like self-preservation, but it’s not; trust is not the enemy, it never has been.

7. There are perfect strangers that love and believe in you; they hold sacred space for your best self to be realized and brought to fruition.



Love Always,

Over-Spiritualizing Things + I Will Hold Space For You

A while ago Gabby Bernstein did a post about how and why to avoid over-spiritualizing, but for some reason today I’ve been thinking about this. Full Disclosure here: I know that this irritation is a reflection of how I feel about myself as well, so please know readers that I irritate myself to no end when I do the same thing.

I’m a spiritual person, love and joy are my religion – I feel no need to put my personal relationship with my higher power in a box based on rules written by someone that has/had entirely different wants, needs, desires, views, yadda yadda and spiritual tools can help us overcome tremendous struggles, manifest deepest desires, and reach peace.

That’s all lovely, but there comes a point when over-spiritualizing can be just as – I don’t want to use the word bad here – unhealthy as having no faith at all. Chanting, meditating, praying, ecstatic dancing, affirmations – these are all beautiful ways to heal, find clarity, and reassure yourself, but you can almost trick yourself into thinking things are okay when they aren’t.

Please, please, please don’t skip steps in the healing process. Feel your feelings! (I know I’m a broken record) Gabby says that a lot of people don’t want to go down to the deep, dark depths and I completely agree with her. It’s hard to let yourself be vulnerable to those feelings; It’s hard to make the decision that you are going to let yourself be sad, angry, disappointed, or whatever you’re feeling, but it is oh-so necessary. The emotions may feel so big that you can’t possibly contain them, breathe in deep and expand to let them in because it is true that you are never given more than you can handle. You can have a toxic relationship with ANYTHING – and when you begin to use your spiritual toolkit to numb yourself out from your feelings or the reality of a situation you are headed down that road.

If you’re feeling overwhelmed with emotion, let someone in. I’ll be your friend ❤

I will hold space for you.

When the pain is so big you can’t bear to let it fill you

you have me to hold and share it.

Each heartbeat is a prayer to raise love, raise joy, raise light.

Let the pain move through you

until it is healed by love and hard work.

I will hold space for you.

When you feel so small and loneliness overtakes you

you have me to remind you, “Breathe. Expand.”

A glorious woman taught me once to inhale suffering and exhale compassion.

Allow acceptance of pain to move to embrace and gratitude of raw wisdom

and then you can meet the hurt head-on with love.

Know that I will always hold space for you

to manifest dreams,

to heal hurts,

to see just beyond the corner to possibility.

Love Always, Me.

Ramblings: Another Stay Open Post aka Don’t *ish On Your Blessings

Shutting down is easy stuff – numbing out keeps the painful emotions at bay. Who want to feel like crap? Over the past couple of days I’ve noticed this trend from the people around me. It’s only natural to want to protect yourself from being hurt, but when it gets in the way of your happiness there’s a huge problem. People want to stay in relationships and numb themselves out, decide not to try anymore because they’re tired of being hurt. Others want to avoid love and friendships because they’ve been let down one too many times. It’s easy to understand the reasoning; you don’t want to end the whole relationship, but there’s just this one thing you that drives you crazy – and you’re obviously the issue – or people suck and they have always and will always let you down.

Now, right here is where I get a tad (a lot) preachy. The best stuff happens when you stay open. Learn it, love it, live it. It’s the truth, I promise. This post isn’t specific to relationships, but it seems like everyone in my circle is facing romantic trials and that is what moved me to post this reminder today. Love period isn’t you’re problem, friendships period aren’t your problem; it all falls on the type of people you ALLOW – as in choose – to come (and stay) into your life.

Don’t let good things pass you by because you’re afraid of what has happened before, i.e. don’t shit on your blessings when they finally come along because you’re afraid they’re going to screw you over or you’re going to screw it up. The best things happen in those moments when it seems everything has fallen to pieces and you choose to remain vulnerable – not weak, OPEN.

How many different ways can I say it so it will finally stick:

  • Faith will take you to heights you never dreamed of.
  • Don’t just accept pain, use it as a catalyst for change.
  • The best is yet to come if only you will keep your heart and mind open to the blessings that are meant for you.
  • The Universe/God(dess)/Buddha/Tree Frog/Whatever is conspiring in your favor and the only way to receive the goodness is to remain open.
  • Maybe you don’t believe in a higher power. In which case, you are the author of your own story. You get to choose to make things better/let better things come to you.

Enough ranting/preaching. It’s hard and I know it is, I’m not here to lie to you about how easy it is to make this choice, but I can promise you that better things await you if you learn from the past while you stay open for future blessings. You’re not alone.



For more inspiration: Part Manifesto Part Letter: Stay Open


I Believe in Sealing it With A Kiss

It? Well, everything.

Wishes, intentions, cosmic requests, epiphanies.

Sealed with a kiss.

It’s become more than habitual, it is an innate ritual that I rarely consciously initiate.

A sacred instant for me,

it gives wings to thought and sends it forth into action.

It’s not uncommon to see me blowing three kisses at stoplights changed just in time

or whispering prayers with eyes upturned and then three kisses and a hand placed over the heart.

This is what I want, this is what will restore my balance, happiness, stability.

Three kisses and a hand to the heart show I mean business.


Is there anything that you do to “seal” your wishes, prayers, intentions?

Any rituals that you do without even thinking about them?

I would love to hear about them, please comment to share.